Ugh. The scale was not kind this morning. I'm still under 320, thank goodness, but not by much. I guess it is safe to say that the crappy eating is really catching up to me and that this is my wake up call.
Point taken.
I really do think part of the problem is my "female issues" right now, but there is also no denying that my eating habits have not been the best, as I have been saying over and over and over... when is it going to be time that I will actually do something about instead?
Well, today. My goal today is to stay on track, eating-wise. No loosey-goosey today, just for one day if I can. I will.
Unfortunately I was feeling totally crappy with cramping and all that fun stuff, so no run. OK, part of it is fear (25 minutes of running! Can I do that yet???) but really, honestly, my legs felt like lead this morning. There was just no way. I'm shooting for tomorrow to have a go at it, so we'll see. If anything, I have GOT to get a nice walk in, whether it is outside or at the gym. It's been raining a lot lately.
I'll probably check back in later and let you know how it is going, but in the meantime, I could use as much rah-rahing as you can muster.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
Still in the Green
Yesterday and today I am back up in the 318, which is... whatever! It's OK. 318.2, to be exact, so really, fine. I can still easily drop those extra two pounds plus some, and again, I think my hormones are screwing things up, too. I am now into my next TOM, which I knew would happen. Ugh. A whole month of TOM, plus! It's amazing that I've done as well as I have, looking back on it. Hey, I am still in the green on my Physics Diet chart, and honestly? That's really all that matters to me. If the trending is headed downward, then it's all good.
I felt way too crappy for a run yesterday, and this morning I did some catching up on housework instead of "real" exercise—but dude, I don't know! I really worked up a good sweat in the half hour I cleaned, so whatever. I am hoping to not feel too queasy for a run tomorrow morning. It'll be a 25 minute one, yikes!
We won't talk about my eating, because honestly, is there anything worse than reading a weight-loss blog that talks about all the foods that you really don't want to be thinking about? So I won't tell you about all the crap I've been ingesting, suffice it to say that I have been ingesting mainly crap. Thank goodness for being active, and for being able to at least not eat so much crap when I do eat it. I tend to be a slow eater, and especially lately have also tried to be extra mindful of my portions, so I have that working for me, anyway.
I actually did get quite a bit more activity in this morning. I took a 1/2 vacation day from my regular job to teach a short class at a summer camp at one of the area's art museums. It was just for about two hours, but not only was I on my feet that whole time keeping up with 18 kids with an average age of eight or nine, but I also had to park a ways away from where I needed to be (it's on a college campus, you know how that goes!) so I got some extra walking in. By the time I got back to my car afterward, I was sweating like a cold glass on a hot day. And I get to do it again two more times in the coming week! I don't know how grade school teachers do what they do all day, every day. Hats off to them!
For now I am relieved to be sitting in my air-conditioned cube (that's another thing—the museum atmosphere almost always makes me feel ill, with its climate control) and doing designy things and not talking to anyone. I think when I get home tonight some lawn work is in order, unless it's raining... more opportunity for exercise! I have to take it however I can get it.
I felt way too crappy for a run yesterday, and this morning I did some catching up on housework instead of "real" exercise—but dude, I don't know! I really worked up a good sweat in the half hour I cleaned, so whatever. I am hoping to not feel too queasy for a run tomorrow morning. It'll be a 25 minute one, yikes!
We won't talk about my eating, because honestly, is there anything worse than reading a weight-loss blog that talks about all the foods that you really don't want to be thinking about? So I won't tell you about all the crap I've been ingesting, suffice it to say that I have been ingesting mainly crap. Thank goodness for being active, and for being able to at least not eat so much crap when I do eat it. I tend to be a slow eater, and especially lately have also tried to be extra mindful of my portions, so I have that working for me, anyway.
I actually did get quite a bit more activity in this morning. I took a 1/2 vacation day from my regular job to teach a short class at a summer camp at one of the area's art museums. It was just for about two hours, but not only was I on my feet that whole time keeping up with 18 kids with an average age of eight or nine, but I also had to park a ways away from where I needed to be (it's on a college campus, you know how that goes!) so I got some extra walking in. By the time I got back to my car afterward, I was sweating like a cold glass on a hot day. And I get to do it again two more times in the coming week! I don't know how grade school teachers do what they do all day, every day. Hats off to them!
For now I am relieved to be sitting in my air-conditioned cube (that's another thing—the museum atmosphere almost always makes me feel ill, with its climate control) and doing designy things and not talking to anyone. I think when I get home tonight some lawn work is in order, unless it's raining... more opportunity for exercise! I have to take it however I can get it.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
New low, totally high!
I learned such a good lesson yesterday. Just because you overindulge on one meal doesn't mean all is lost for the day. If you work hard to make up for it, you can still save the day. And save the day, did I ever!
I slept for a long time last night, even with the time I was up in the middle of the night—about ten hours! I guess I needed it, though, and when I woke up, I saw that old Aunt Flow arrived. Again. Still. Whatever. So I was feeling pretty crappy, not very strong, and just draggy in general. But I was really looking forward to finishing the last of the "training wheel" sessions of C25K so I told myself that I could just get out and give it a try, and that if it was too much for my body, I could stop, or do less. Just so that I got out there, at least. Well, it turned out to be my most difficult C25K run so far, even though it had some walking... I just didn't have my usual energy and strength. I made it through, though, I am happy to say, and my speed wasn't as bad as I thought, 3.3 mph average for the whole session, including warm-up and cool down. Just .2 mph under my best, so that's pretty good considering how crappy I was feeling.
When I got home and hopped on the scale (well, after a few minutes of cooling down and resting—I needed it!) I was amply rewarded for having a small dinner last night, and for my efforts this morning, showing 316.2, my lowest yet since December! What a thrill. Is it possible that I will finally see 315 this week? Well, I expect it, but I won't hold my breath, either. Hm, does that cancel out my expectations? Nah, I am just very happy that I have passed the 20 pound mark and that I am well ensconced in the 310s, period. There's just something about 315 right now... I hate to obsess over numbers, but man! I want to get there so badly!
Ideally I'd like to see 310 by my company picnic on July 11. It's definitely doable, but at the same time I know a lot of it will rely on what's going on with my body, too. I mean, I held onto 321-ish for several weeks! We'll see. Ultimately I would just really like to be out of the 300s by the end of August, that is what I am really shooting for, which gives me some wiggle room. If I can do that, I'll finally be caught up to where I was last year at around the same time, and from then on it's going to be all new territory. I'm so looking forward to that.
PS: I'm moving my official weigh-in to Saturdays.
I slept for a long time last night, even with the time I was up in the middle of the night—about ten hours! I guess I needed it, though, and when I woke up, I saw that old Aunt Flow arrived. Again. Still. Whatever. So I was feeling pretty crappy, not very strong, and just draggy in general. But I was really looking forward to finishing the last of the "training wheel" sessions of C25K so I told myself that I could just get out and give it a try, and that if it was too much for my body, I could stop, or do less. Just so that I got out there, at least. Well, it turned out to be my most difficult C25K run so far, even though it had some walking... I just didn't have my usual energy and strength. I made it through, though, I am happy to say, and my speed wasn't as bad as I thought, 3.3 mph average for the whole session, including warm-up and cool down. Just .2 mph under my best, so that's pretty good considering how crappy I was feeling.
When I got home and hopped on the scale (well, after a few minutes of cooling down and resting—I needed it!) I was amply rewarded for having a small dinner last night, and for my efforts this morning, showing 316.2, my lowest yet since December! What a thrill. Is it possible that I will finally see 315 this week? Well, I expect it, but I won't hold my breath, either. Hm, does that cancel out my expectations? Nah, I am just very happy that I have passed the 20 pound mark and that I am well ensconced in the 310s, period. There's just something about 315 right now... I hate to obsess over numbers, but man! I want to get there so badly!
Ideally I'd like to see 310 by my company picnic on July 11. It's definitely doable, but at the same time I know a lot of it will rely on what's going on with my body, too. I mean, I held onto 321-ish for several weeks! We'll see. Ultimately I would just really like to be out of the 300s by the end of August, that is what I am really shooting for, which gives me some wiggle room. If I can do that, I'll finally be caught up to where I was last year at around the same time, and from then on it's going to be all new territory. I'm so looking forward to that.
PS: I'm moving my official weigh-in to Saturdays.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Up All Night
Well, not really. Just up in the middle of the night because I went to bed way too early—like 7pm too early! I don't know what I was thinking, just tired and so glad that it's the weekend again. Going to bed at 7pm isn't something I could do on a worknight, that's for sure.
So here I am all bright-eyed and bushy-tailed at three in the morning. I don't plan to stay up for too long, because I don't want to screw up my morning and rest of the day plans for tomorrow. I'll be doing Week 6 Day 2 of C25K, which is a big milestone as it is the last run with what I call "training wheels". That is, it is the last run with any walking segments aside from the warm up and cool down. Wow. I can believe I am that far already! From tomorrow through the next three and a half weeks, it's all 25 to 30 minute runs for me, three times a week. How exciting! I am just thrilled that I was able to come back from such a dismal state of fitness so recently. Just goes to show how amazing and resilient the human body can be.
That said, I have to admit that I am glad I won't be running for 25 minutes straight tomorrow. It'll be 10 minutes running, 3 walking, and 10 running. That seems much more doable, don't you think? Yet you'd be amazed at how a body will come through when it's time to do those longer runs. The C25K program really does prepare you without you even knowing it!
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I also wanted to say now that I am proud of myself after today's lunch disaster that I ate a small dinner that kept me within my caloric boundaries (well, I hope so, anyway—I did have to guesstimate on many of the items I had for lunch, but I did so on the high end). It wasn't the most healthful dinner, granted, but it served its purpose. Yep, popcorn with parmesan cheese and hot sauce, plus some Hola Fruta Mango sherbet (about 3/4 of a cup). I wanted something easy and easily countable.
There is definitely a thread going through this past week. I was always looking for something fast and easy to eat and didn't feel like cooking most of the time. I need to make sure that I have healthy choices available for myself during those times, and I just wasn't prepared in that was this week. Hopefully I can do better with that next week, or at least plan a little better.
I'm feeling really good about things right now, even at 3am! Keeping up in this blog regularly has really helped me, as has reading lots of other blogs by people going through the same things I am, having the same struggles and concerns. Reading those blogs truly inspire me and keep me on track, no lie! I am thankful to each and every person who is wiling to share their experiences with the world, warts and all.
So here I am all bright-eyed and bushy-tailed at three in the morning. I don't plan to stay up for too long, because I don't want to screw up my morning and rest of the day plans for tomorrow. I'll be doing Week 6 Day 2 of C25K, which is a big milestone as it is the last run with what I call "training wheels". That is, it is the last run with any walking segments aside from the warm up and cool down. Wow. I can believe I am that far already! From tomorrow through the next three and a half weeks, it's all 25 to 30 minute runs for me, three times a week. How exciting! I am just thrilled that I was able to come back from such a dismal state of fitness so recently. Just goes to show how amazing and resilient the human body can be.
That said, I have to admit that I am glad I won't be running for 25 minutes straight tomorrow. It'll be 10 minutes running, 3 walking, and 10 running. That seems much more doable, don't you think? Yet you'd be amazed at how a body will come through when it's time to do those longer runs. The C25K program really does prepare you without you even knowing it!
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I also wanted to say now that I am proud of myself after today's lunch disaster that I ate a small dinner that kept me within my caloric boundaries (well, I hope so, anyway—I did have to guesstimate on many of the items I had for lunch, but I did so on the high end). It wasn't the most healthful dinner, granted, but it served its purpose. Yep, popcorn with parmesan cheese and hot sauce, plus some Hola Fruta Mango sherbet (about 3/4 of a cup). I wanted something easy and easily countable.
There is definitely a thread going through this past week. I was always looking for something fast and easy to eat and didn't feel like cooking most of the time. I need to make sure that I have healthy choices available for myself during those times, and I just wasn't prepared in that was this week. Hopefully I can do better with that next week, or at least plan a little better.
I'm feeling really good about things right now, even at 3am! Keeping up in this blog regularly has really helped me, as has reading lots of other blogs by people going through the same things I am, having the same struggles and concerns. Reading those blogs truly inspire me and keep me on track, no lie! I am thankful to each and every person who is wiling to share their experiences with the world, warts and all.
Wegmans, you done me wrong.
Hm. I've done some things right today, some things wrong.
(I just want to say how glad I am that it is Friday, by the way!)
Had my usual breakfast, drinking water, had lunch. *brakes squealing*
Oh, lunch. I need to start planning you and bringing you into work. You just don't fit into my plans when I have to go out and get you.
I had the bright idea of going to Wegmans (the best grocery store chain in the region) to take advantage of their awesome lunch take-out bar. They've got all kinds of stuff, from hot dishes (Chinese and Indian cuisines), sushi, cold salads of all kinds, plus the sub and pizza counters, plus the whole grocery store. I ended up buying way too much food and also spending too much money. Double whammy, it's got to stop!
I opted for some Indian food, a chicken dish and a veggie dish that were pretty good choices, plus a wee bit of a chicken dish that wasn't such a good choice (it had cream in the sauce), a little lemon rice, some roasted green beans, and two very small pieces of naan bread. It turned out to be 1.5 pounds of food! Hm, didn't seem like it as I was loading it into the container. They obviously need smaller containers.
I bought it anyway, and at the register they have, very strategically placed, the most delicious-looking cookies. They are decadent and they are not cheap. What do you think I did? Yep, that's right. I bought one.
At my desk, I ate everything, not even fully enjoying it because I felt rather anxious eating it in the first place (too much, too expensive).
I still have so far to go in getting this down pat. I still have so many issues to deal with and hopefully someday fix. It's so frustrating that I insist on repeating stupid behavior like this. Learn it, already! Dammit!
The good news is that I logged everything the best I could. I don't have a lot to work with for dinner, but I will try really hard not to continue the overdoing it into the rest of the day. I deserve better than that.
(I just want to say how glad I am that it is Friday, by the way!)
Had my usual breakfast, drinking water, had lunch. *brakes squealing*
Oh, lunch. I need to start planning you and bringing you into work. You just don't fit into my plans when I have to go out and get you.
I had the bright idea of going to Wegmans (the best grocery store chain in the region) to take advantage of their awesome lunch take-out bar. They've got all kinds of stuff, from hot dishes (Chinese and Indian cuisines), sushi, cold salads of all kinds, plus the sub and pizza counters, plus the whole grocery store. I ended up buying way too much food and also spending too much money. Double whammy, it's got to stop!
I opted for some Indian food, a chicken dish and a veggie dish that were pretty good choices, plus a wee bit of a chicken dish that wasn't such a good choice (it had cream in the sauce), a little lemon rice, some roasted green beans, and two very small pieces of naan bread. It turned out to be 1.5 pounds of food! Hm, didn't seem like it as I was loading it into the container. They obviously need smaller containers.
I bought it anyway, and at the register they have, very strategically placed, the most delicious-looking cookies. They are decadent and they are not cheap. What do you think I did? Yep, that's right. I bought one.
At my desk, I ate everything, not even fully enjoying it because I felt rather anxious eating it in the first place (too much, too expensive).
I still have so far to go in getting this down pat. I still have so many issues to deal with and hopefully someday fix. It's so frustrating that I insist on repeating stupid behavior like this. Learn it, already! Dammit!
The good news is that I logged everything the best I could. I don't have a lot to work with for dinner, but I will try really hard not to continue the overdoing it into the rest of the day. I deserve better than that.
One Step Forward, Two Steps Back
Weight: 319.4
Total Weight loss: 17.2 pounds
Today's my "official" weigh-in day. I'm down from last week, so that makes me happy, but I am really, really up from yesterday, which makes me disappointed.
I'm not surprised, mind you. Sure, I've been exercising regularly and really enjoying that, but my eating has not been so great. It's been worse, but it could be much better. And I admit, I haven't been tracking my food much this week, either, which doesn't help. Yesterday could have been fine, but I made a few bad decisions at around (you guessed it!) dinner time. I didn't feel like cooking or shopping, and I didn't feel like having spaghetti leftovers, so I put the frozen pizza I had tucked away in the freezer in the oven. And proceeded to eat all of it—once it came out of the oven, of course! I'm talking a full-sized Tombstone extra cheese pizza. Not so good. On top of that I finished off a bag of, of all things, gummi bears.
I don't know what I have been thinking lately. I could really be making even more awesome progress if I got back on track here.
The one thing I did right last night was, after all that, drinking a tall glass of ice water and NOT having an ice cream sundae again. I could have, trust me.
It's a good possibility that this two and a half pound gain resulted in part from all the sodium I likely consumed yesterday; I still haven't conquered my Subway addiction and had a roast beef sub for lunch. That's a lot of sodium.
When I was walking this morning, my fingers blew up like balloons. All this is really no surprise. Hopefully today will be a good one, and I can make up for my transgressions quickly.
It's nice to not be too upset about this! I know what I did wrong, and I know that I can fix it by getting back on track. And I made sure to get out for a good half hour walk even though I didn't feel so hot initially. I knew that if I didn't, I'd regret it. The times that are most important to get exercise in are the times when you really don't want to do it... that's when you need it most, I think!
Anyway, I am pleased to see an overall loss this past week and we'll leave it at that.
ETA: I just figured out that I am still averaging over a 2 pound loss per week, which is indeed great! I just have to keep it up.
Total Weight loss: 17.2 pounds
Today's my "official" weigh-in day. I'm down from last week, so that makes me happy, but I am really, really up from yesterday, which makes me disappointed.
I'm not surprised, mind you. Sure, I've been exercising regularly and really enjoying that, but my eating has not been so great. It's been worse, but it could be much better. And I admit, I haven't been tracking my food much this week, either, which doesn't help. Yesterday could have been fine, but I made a few bad decisions at around (you guessed it!) dinner time. I didn't feel like cooking or shopping, and I didn't feel like having spaghetti leftovers, so I put the frozen pizza I had tucked away in the freezer in the oven. And proceeded to eat all of it—once it came out of the oven, of course! I'm talking a full-sized Tombstone extra cheese pizza. Not so good. On top of that I finished off a bag of, of all things, gummi bears.
I don't know what I have been thinking lately. I could really be making even more awesome progress if I got back on track here.
The one thing I did right last night was, after all that, drinking a tall glass of ice water and NOT having an ice cream sundae again. I could have, trust me.
It's a good possibility that this two and a half pound gain resulted in part from all the sodium I likely consumed yesterday; I still haven't conquered my Subway addiction and had a roast beef sub for lunch. That's a lot of sodium.
When I was walking this morning, my fingers blew up like balloons. All this is really no surprise. Hopefully today will be a good one, and I can make up for my transgressions quickly.
It's nice to not be too upset about this! I know what I did wrong, and I know that I can fix it by getting back on track. And I made sure to get out for a good half hour walk even though I didn't feel so hot initially. I knew that if I didn't, I'd regret it. The times that are most important to get exercise in are the times when you really don't want to do it... that's when you need it most, I think!
Anyway, I am pleased to see an overall loss this past week and we'll leave it at that.
ETA: I just figured out that I am still averaging over a 2 pound loss per week, which is indeed great! I just have to keep it up.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Erasing Time
I'm absolutely doubly thrilled this morning!
First, I did Week 6, Day 1 of C25K and did just great. My average pace was my best so far, 17:06—better than my last best run last week, and way better than I ever did during last year's sequence. I know I have said it before, but I am so proud of how far I have come fitness-wise in less than two months. Who would have thunk it?
Second, I hopped on the scale not expecting much, when to my surprise: A breakthrough! 316.8 today. Just awesome. I am just .2 pounds away from the 20 pound mark since I started on May 1st.
Yesterday I didn't eat particularly well. I did OK during the day, but come dinner time, while I didn't binge or anything, I just ate a lot of crap. We had spaghetti with a very, very meaty sauce (not my favorite), and I probably overdid it a bit on the garlic bread because I was feeling so bad all day. Plus, we ate on the late side because when I got home from work (slightly early, but I hung in there longer than I originally thought I would), I slept for two hours! I was just totally spent. So yeah, definitely some comfort eating going on, even before dinner—while cooking I popped a couple leftover biscuits from the day before (with butter) and some of those totally addicting, shouldn't have 'em in the house Wheat Thins Artisinal crackers (Vermont cheddar flavor). I just felt compelled. All that, topped off with an ice cream sundae for dessert. WTF!
So you can imagine how even more yucky I felt after all that. Later in the evening—it was about 8:30pm at this point— I decided that I wanted to get at least a little physical activity in to perk me up a bit, so I went outside and spent about an hour digging in the dirt and planting some new plants I got last weekend. I worked until dark and worked up a nice sweat. Very sweaty, in fact. Which goes to show that even when you make poor choices in one area of your day, doesn't mean that you can't make up for it in another way. I definitely felt that I accomplished that. I made myself feel better both mentally and physically.
And what about the title of my post today? Well, with the loss I showed today I have effectively erased the last six months of my life, weight-wise. All the gains I saw between early January and May? Gone, totally. The next sixteens pounds or so will take me back to October 2008. Time travel is fun! I am just so glad that I have been able to nip that whole "I lost 50 pounds only to gain it all back plus some" in the bud. Not only can I look at my loss now as twenty pounds since May, but I can also look at it as having lost 33.2 pounds since January 2008. Either way, I win.
First, I did Week 6, Day 1 of C25K and did just great. My average pace was my best so far, 17:06—better than my last best run last week, and way better than I ever did during last year's sequence. I know I have said it before, but I am so proud of how far I have come fitness-wise in less than two months. Who would have thunk it?
Second, I hopped on the scale not expecting much, when to my surprise: A breakthrough! 316.8 today. Just awesome. I am just .2 pounds away from the 20 pound mark since I started on May 1st.
Yesterday I didn't eat particularly well. I did OK during the day, but come dinner time, while I didn't binge or anything, I just ate a lot of crap. We had spaghetti with a very, very meaty sauce (not my favorite), and I probably overdid it a bit on the garlic bread because I was feeling so bad all day. Plus, we ate on the late side because when I got home from work (slightly early, but I hung in there longer than I originally thought I would), I slept for two hours! I was just totally spent. So yeah, definitely some comfort eating going on, even before dinner—while cooking I popped a couple leftover biscuits from the day before (with butter) and some of those totally addicting, shouldn't have 'em in the house Wheat Thins Artisinal crackers (Vermont cheddar flavor). I just felt compelled. All that, topped off with an ice cream sundae for dessert. WTF!
So you can imagine how even more yucky I felt after all that. Later in the evening—it was about 8:30pm at this point— I decided that I wanted to get at least a little physical activity in to perk me up a bit, so I went outside and spent about an hour digging in the dirt and planting some new plants I got last weekend. I worked until dark and worked up a nice sweat. Very sweaty, in fact. Which goes to show that even when you make poor choices in one area of your day, doesn't mean that you can't make up for it in another way. I definitely felt that I accomplished that. I made myself feel better both mentally and physically.
And what about the title of my post today? Well, with the loss I showed today I have effectively erased the last six months of my life, weight-wise. All the gains I saw between early January and May? Gone, totally. The next sixteens pounds or so will take me back to October 2008. Time travel is fun! I am just so glad that I have been able to nip that whole "I lost 50 pounds only to gain it all back plus some" in the bud. Not only can I look at my loss now as twenty pounds since May, but I can also look at it as having lost 33.2 pounds since January 2008. Either way, I win.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Feeling Yucky
That about says it all for today: I feel yucky. I guess it's PMS, beyond achey and just feeling off. I may leave work early today, like soon.
Still hanging out in 318, which is fine! It's better than 320.
I didn't go on my run this morning because I was feeling so ick. Last night I worked up a good sweat on mowing the front lawn and weeding the vegetable gardens, at least.
Oh well.
Still hanging out in 318, which is fine! It's better than 320.
I didn't go on my run this morning because I was feeling so ick. Last night I worked up a good sweat on mowing the front lawn and weeding the vegetable gardens, at least.
Oh well.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
What, another post?
It's just one of those days when I feel like I have to process everything that is going through my head. I'm having another emotional day, I guess.
Well, after the doctor's visit I was pretty hungry for lunch, and for the second day in a row I had a Subway roast beef sub. This is surely much better than McDonald's or any other fast food option, but the bad things are that a) I think I am kind of addicted to Subway roast beef subs on honey oat bread with all the fixins (except for lettuce and banana peppers), red wine vinaigrette, and black pepper! Being compulsive about a food is never a good thing, so even though I have said it before, I'll say it again (and mean it!)—I need to stop going to Subway for at least a while. Not to mention, it gets expensive, especially since they took roast beef off the $5 list! I definitely do not need to throw money around like that, not when I am worried about paying the bills.
So anyway. It's not that I feel guilty about it, not really, but I kind of DO! I need to start taking lunches regularly again, for sure.
The evening is pretty well planned. When I get home, I'm going to shuck some corn on the cob, and then while C. is grilling the corn and steaks for dinner, I am going to mow the front lawn. Eat dinner, then work in the garden a little bit, then work on freelance design stuff a little bit, maybe watch some TV, then hit the sack by 10:30 so I can get a good run in tomorrow morning—C25K Week 6! Wow.
It's sure is nice to have the evening planned, but it tires me out just thinking about it. I'm tired enough sitting in my cube at work, feeling sluggish. Hopefully the physical activity with pep me up a bit.
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I forgot to mention that when I rolled out of bed this morning, my right knee twinged! Like, I almost twisted it or something, that's what it felt like! But, I have no idea how that could have happened. It was just fine when I went to bed last night! Throughout the day it's been in and out with a slight pain. All I can say is, it better right itself soon!
Well, after the doctor's visit I was pretty hungry for lunch, and for the second day in a row I had a Subway roast beef sub. This is surely much better than McDonald's or any other fast food option, but the bad things are that a) I think I am kind of addicted to Subway roast beef subs on honey oat bread with all the fixins (except for lettuce and banana peppers), red wine vinaigrette, and black pepper! Being compulsive about a food is never a good thing, so even though I have said it before, I'll say it again (and mean it!)—I need to stop going to Subway for at least a while. Not to mention, it gets expensive, especially since they took roast beef off the $5 list! I definitely do not need to throw money around like that, not when I am worried about paying the bills.
So anyway. It's not that I feel guilty about it, not really, but I kind of DO! I need to start taking lunches regularly again, for sure.
The evening is pretty well planned. When I get home, I'm going to shuck some corn on the cob, and then while C. is grilling the corn and steaks for dinner, I am going to mow the front lawn. Eat dinner, then work in the garden a little bit, then work on freelance design stuff a little bit, maybe watch some TV, then hit the sack by 10:30 so I can get a good run in tomorrow morning—C25K Week 6! Wow.
It's sure is nice to have the evening planned, but it tires me out just thinking about it. I'm tired enough sitting in my cube at work, feeling sluggish. Hopefully the physical activity with pep me up a bit.
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I forgot to mention that when I rolled out of bed this morning, my right knee twinged! Like, I almost twisted it or something, that's what it felt like! But, I have no idea how that could have happened. It was just fine when I went to bed last night! Throughout the day it's been in and out with a slight pain. All I can say is, it better right itself soon!
Update: I'm OK
Just as a follow-up to earlier: The doc thinks it is just the artificial hormones in my birth control pills doing funny things with my cycle. He's going to have me take another round of pills and see if my cycle goes back to normal, and if so, wahoo! and if not, then plan B. Which would tests and stuff, I guess.
I really hate going to the doctor's office. No matter how hard I try to keep myself well-composed, I always end up feeling like they think I am being "difficult" (a la Elaine on Seinfeld), or I end up getting weepy. Both happened today! I swear, I really didn't think I was getting snippy, but I guess, based on the doc and nurse's reaction to my answers, I must have been. And that made me upset, so toward the end of the appointment I just almost started to cry.
I'm such a typical weepy fat girl. Blech.
Doctors suck. I feel like I want to find a new gyno and a new GP to boot.
Anyway, I'm OK for now!
I really hate going to the doctor's office. No matter how hard I try to keep myself well-composed, I always end up feeling like they think I am being "difficult" (a la Elaine on Seinfeld), or I end up getting weepy. Both happened today! I swear, I really didn't think I was getting snippy, but I guess, based on the doc and nurse's reaction to my answers, I must have been. And that made me upset, so toward the end of the appointment I just almost started to cry.
I'm such a typical weepy fat girl. Blech.
Doctors suck. I feel like I want to find a new gyno and a new GP to boot.
Anyway, I'm OK for now!
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