Weekly Weight Report

Weight: 326.6
Total Weight lost this week: 1.2 pounds
Total Weight lost this month: .8 pounds

And actually, I had been as high as 331.2 in the past month, so I consider this a great success. Just getting back into the right mindset. Still searching for the sweet spot — the best way for me to lose weight without feeling like I am giving much up (because look, otherwise I just won't stay with it). So many false starts, so much disappointment... but I am keeping on keeping on. Yesterday, I had a little sense in the back of my thick head that one day, I actually won't be considered fat anymore. I don't know, I have to be honest. I always say that my ultimate goal is NOT necessarily to be thin, but to just be comfortable, able, and healthy. But the truth is, I don't want to be fat anymore. I really don't. I'm sick of it.

Of course, my version of "not fat" is probably much different than say, society's version. But no matter. I have a glimmer of hope that one day I will achieve that ultimate goal, with a whole lot of other smaller goals in the meantime.

I was actually a little zinged this morning at the scale reading. Yesterday I was down to 325.8, and I had a really good day that included two larger meals (including breakfast), no snacking, and *drum roll please* a short walk! There a couple open houses in my neighborhood that I wanted to check out within walking distance, so I figured, what better an excuse to get exercising again? It only totaled up to about 3/4 of a mile and I wasn't wearing exercise clothing or anything (except sneakers, of course), so it wasn't like turbo charged. Still, I went at a fairly clip pace for me. It felt good. I felt like breaking into a run, even. I will leave that to next time.

So yeah. I had higher expectations for weigh-in this morning, having gone to bed with an empty stomach. Then again, that lovely TOM is coming up in a week or so, so I guess I shouldn't be all that surprised. It's always something.

I am just very pleased at the week overall. It leaves a lot of room for hope and future success. I am going to shape a new me for myself, and I am going to have fun doing it.