|My life, lately. (I love my Bitmoji!!!)|
I don't know how many times I will need to say it, but...
I am still here. (Hi, Jewel!)
You guys, it's been hard to stay on top of things lately. In some ways I've done all but truly let go, yet I still have hope that I will really get back on track in the way I need to. It's been challenging for a number of reasons:
• General not-exactly-depression
• Lack of confidence
• Very busy and stressful at work (I got a promotion and we've been in the middle of one of two of the busiest times in our industry)
• Wanting to eat ALL the food (and often doing it)
• Pure laziness
• Being sick of tracking every aspect of my life and so stopping doing things like logging on MyFitnessPal, etc.
• Not writing as much here
|Fellows NoBo 3.0ers Kristen, Josh, and me before the 10K!|
At the same time, I've kept up with running on and off – though admittedly totally off the past week since I ran my first 10K last Saturday. I did well, at least in that I finished and ran the whole thing except for a few steps going through the two water stations. I didn't make my goal of finishing in less than an hour and a half – my official time was 1:34:19 (15:13 pace). BUT my app time had me at slightly less time for slightly more distance and an average pace of 14:47, so apples to apples, I guess. I was pleased!
But wow! It was killer. Just around mile 5 I started to hit the wall and didn't think I could finish, but at the same time with about a mile to go, how could I not, right?
The bad news is that my weight has creeped up to beyond that RED zone I talked about previously, as in about 287. Bad, bad, bad news indeed. I just can't go back to the way I was. I won't let it happen.
Work will be easing up a bit soon, so that will help; we've also started playing tennis again pretty regularly AND I've signed up to mentor the No Boundaries running program starting in June. I need to stay active and I need to get a hold of my eating. I'm thinking that I probably need to get back to logging my food again and just being more mindful. If I do that, I'll be OK. I'll start weighing daily for a while, again, too. Anything to get my mind back in the place it needs to be.
There are so many reasons why I want to continue to lose weight. I've worked too hard to get where I am today (or, a few months ago, anyway).