Wednesday, December 21, 2016

Being Brave

Today being brave means that I got on the scale, and it wasn't pretty. I was prepared. It's just reality, it's something to deal with and I have the knowledge and tools to deal with it.

I've hit 307 pounds. Grr. So not good.

So that is the bad news. The good news is that I know that I really can reverse the damage. I don't have to be here. New goal! *rolls eyes* New goal is to get below 300 before the new year. I can't stay here. I can't live with this. I can't just let it go.

One big help I have in my life is my boyfriend, who is also struggling with his goals. We're now closer in weight than we have been in a long time. When we first met, he weighed a good 70 pounds less than me, but over time he ended up weighing at least 30 pounds more than me at my heaviest. We don't know for sure. So now, we're within 10 pounds of each other. I am happy for him, but not happy for me.

I have to keep pounding at it, no matter how many times I have to make declarations here, no matter how many times I mess up, no matter how many times I said that I would never go above 300 again... I know now that I can never really be too far away from it. I was down to 265 and thought it would be impossible to find myself back here, but look how easily it happened!

I really know better now. I must continue to be diligent.

Oh well, at least I like this photo of me today. Thanks Photo Booth app on my work computer!

I like my hair today, and my lipstick.


  1. Having a goal like that, at this time, may turn out to be a great tool to help face down holiday temptations. Good luck and merry Christmas!

    1. Thank you! You too! I'm feeling better about things now that I faced the music and know where I stand again. I had a great workout today and the scale is on the downward trend, too.

  2. You look totally adorable, love that picture. Glad you're not letting a number dampen your spirit!

    1. Aw, thanks so much, Crabby! Nope, I can't let it get me down. I've come too far to give up now. I can still make it happen. I WILL! xo